Sunday, 9 September 2012

Wasted on fixing all the problems that you made in your own head.

Obligatory update for a moment in time when I should really be doing something much more useful.

Right now, I should probably be asleep. But sometimes it's just much more relaxing to put some words down that an occasional internet-dweller may stumble across.

I'm thoroughly enjoying my new job. I've been there over a month, and it has yet to break me down as everyone keeps promising! I like to think I have a positive attitude, but we'll see how it is in the next few months...

I posted last time about a fairly amicable break up. This has, fairly inevitably, turned sour, and has only been aggravated by the living situation. It can be difficult to handle at times, but it's fairly easy to look at the situation as an adult and deal with it in the right way. I refuse to be brought down to a certain level, and will rise above any and all of the ridiculous, false and derogatory claims made about me.

This has easily been impacted by my current outlook on life. In a relaxed and philosophical manner (and completely unpretentiously...) I am going through a steady process of removing any negative forces in my life. It's been steady going over the past year or so, but I'm still working at it, and hope to carry this attitude with me throughout my life. I think this whole feeling came from a realisation that I certainly don't need to waste my time and energy on people, events and areas of my life that no longer hold any positivity. And as such, I've made some difficult decisions in moving away from things and people that were once very important in my life, weighing up the pros and cons. Sadly, it can often mean that difficult and negative times can far outshine the better times, but with an uncertain future to plan for it would be hard to drive forwards when feeling held back by these emotions.

With this in mind, it means that some difficult decisions must be made within my current situation. It initially seems sad, but on a grander scale it can only lead to better times and better opportunities!

This does all seem rather pretentious, doesn't it? Positive/Negative forces is the only fully-rounded way to describe the attitude though. I hope this makes some kind of sense, no matter how garbled!

In other news, I have met a very lovely someone. This is all very exciting and fun and wonderful and is making me terribly giggly and girly, and he is truly amazing. He buys me flowers and quotes Shakespeare, he discusses Film (with a capital 'f') and theatre at length at all hours of the day and night, he's interested in my work and plans as much as I am with his, he sends me beautiful music, and he seems to quite like me too. And he's really rather gorgeous. He's away for a little while at the moment, which is a bit of a test and an eye-opener, seeing as this has only been going on for a few weeks. But things are very good. And I am very happy.

And (You Make Me Feel Like) A Natural Woman just came on my playlist. Fitting?

I'm really very excited for one of my closest and dearest friends who has literally just made the Big Move to LDN, for fantastic opportunities and excitement, and I am so very happy for her. I can think of no one more deserving of such a promising break.

I'm also steadily trying to avoid a DISSERTATION meltdown. Things are not currently panning out as expected. But it will get resolved, I have no doubts.

Things are most definitely on the up